Good morning, my friends! Monday Morning Coffee will return next week at its regularly scheduled time. Today, though, is all about my thing. My thing is OCD. It took me years to know and understand it, and even longer to break the stigma to feel comfortable sharing it with others. This is the nature of OCD. 
It is serious. And debilitating. Exhausting. Frustrating. And so much more. OCD is also treatable. I am proof of that!
While for years I had random, intrusive thoughts regarding irrational things like running over a tree branch and believing I ran over a person, or thinking I left the stove on, or noticing a freckle on my back that had been there my whole life, but suddenly became dangerous in my mind, I was able to manage my OCD. Do not recommend. Managing my OCD meant driving back to the spot I thought I had hit a person over and over to reassure myself I hadn't. It was checking the stove again and again, and still not being sure it was off. It was checking and rechecking the spot on my back to make sure it wasn't changing color or shape. 
It wasn't until I was in my early forties and beginning menopause that I became unable to manage the weight of OCD myself. Sidenote: That is a symptom of menopause that is not talked about enough. Why is that? Anyway, once I admitted that I needed help, my husband took over and got me a diagnosis from my primary care doctor, who was so compassionate and kind. This led to an appointment with my therapist, the most amazing, patient, caring, and helpful soul ever. I realized I wasn't alone in these weird thoughts. I had people to talk to, and they helped me understand that OCD is a disease. Nothing I did caused it. But I could manage it. That is what I did. And continue to do.
I take prescribed medication for OCD, and although I no longer have regularly scheduled appointments with my therapist, I know she is one phone call away. It wasn't easy getting to the place I am today. There is no magic pill. It takes work to manage a disease like OCD, Anxiety, Depression, or Health Anxiety. Find your people. Let them help. Advocate for yourself, and keep going. Every single day. I am proof that one can manage OCD and Anxiety. I now have the tools, medication, support, and desire to handle it if and when it pays a visit, and I pray that anyone suffering from any kind of mental illness feels empowered to do the same.
Thanks for reading and listening, my friends. Leaving you with some weekend pictures because OCD is a part of my life. It does not define it. Have a cozy day!

Dinner last night was stromboli and baby arugula salad with Parmesan cheese.
We went to the condo yesterday afternoon to see the waves from the storm. 
And this little one is all fresh from her doggy spa!
Billie Jo





 
I remember hearing people say, "I have to keep everything in my house spotless and clean because of my OCD" and I thought, wow I wish I had OCD because I'm terrible at finding motivation to clean. However, I know OCD is so much more than that and it can be frustrating in so many ways. Thanks for sharing your vulnerability because you have the experience to help others. I'm glad you were able to seek and find help. Hugs to you!!!!
ReplyDeleteFirst, I'm so sorry that you experience this and all that comes with it, Billie Jo. But you are smart about getting the right treatment and care, and Steve was a big help with that. So good of you to share this with others who may be experiencing the same thing. The waves from the storm are interesting, and I've always thought the ocean was so powerful. The stromboli looks delicious. Wishing you a week of lovely moments, Billie Jo.
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People often throw the term OCD around without really understandng how debilitating it can be. I'm so pleased you were able to access the help and support you needed, Billie Jo. And I hope your openness to share will help others too. Xx
ReplyDeleteSo so proud of you for taking care of yourself! And your vulnerability in sharing so others can learn from your experiences too. The waves at the condo are amazing--glad you were safe on shore. And doggie spa days always make them look so proud don't they?!
ReplyDeleteI have OCD. Have had it for decades. At one point I had washed almost all the skin off my hands, plus other things. I have gotten a lot better, but still have some problems.
ReplyDeleteP.S. I hate the way some people say they have OCD for just small things that are really not. It has almost become a catch phrase. They have no idea how stressful it is, like being trapped in your own mind.
ReplyDeleteBillie Jo, So glad you were able to find help, were supported by family, and are doing so well. Both Anna and Abigail have been diagnosed with OCD specialty doctors and have weekly therapy appointments that help them with new treatments "exposures" and they have been successful. It is a journey though. So grateful that mental health is beginning to be prioritized.
ReplyDeleteHave a great week, Tara
I'm glad you were able to get treatment and manage this, and I'm proud of you for speaking out! This will help others.
ReplyDeleteYour meals always look restaurant worthy - yum!
Dear Billie Jo, bless your heart. Thank 😊 you so much for sharing this, my friend, and mental ❤️ health is so important. Your meals look scrumptious.
ReplyDeleteI am so proud of you 👏 🥰 💛 for speaking up about this, it takes great courage and strength.
It is wonderful that you have gotten treatment to manage this.
God bless you 🙏 ❤️
Oh, and your photos are beautiful and little dog is precious.
ReplyDeleteYour post was delightful to read! Your little guy is just adorable. He makes me miss my Mandy so much. And the photos of ocean waves! I sure miss Florida when I see that.
ReplyDeleteYou have my respect and prayers regarding OCD. I've heard it's a bear to live with and I'm so glad you have found that balance. When I've done things over and over, I've often joked that I had OCD. But now I realize it's nothing to joke about. Have a great week.
Beautiful ocean and your meal looks delicious. My daughter has OCD. I didn't know they had an awareness week. She is currently in her early 40's now. Thank you for sharing this.
ReplyDeleteI always admire you for sharing this journey, and am so glad you've found a way to manage it. My son is currently struggling with pretty severe anxiety and we're (doctors, therapists, psych for med management) trying to find the right combination of things to help him get some relief. It really is so much more debilitating than peopleknow.
ReplyDeleteI admire how you share so much of yourself here and this kind of understanding and education is so helpful! I love that you said it doesn't define your life. The key is to understand and utilize the resources available. Thank you so much for always being so raw and real here. Along with being so fun and sharing all I love - Autumn, sweet pups, beautiful home, family and recipes. Your dinner looked amazing btw! Blessings always xoxo
ReplyDeleteWhile OCD exists worldwide, the United States has the highest rate of OCD compared to foreign countries.
ReplyDeleteHi Billie Jo! I appreciate this post so much! Many of us have similar struggles. It's so good to know that we are not alone! Thanks again and God bless!
ReplyDeleteHi Billie, thanks for visiting my blog. I found your read today to be interesting. I believe my hubby has this but does not want to find out about it. I on the other hand have had to deal with my issues and one is ADHD. I do see some OCD too at times. Your food looks so good! Thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeleteI am glad you found a treatment and help and that you managed to get over this.
ReplyDeleteYour dog is always so cute!
Thanks for sharing your story with us. I love how when you were ready, Hubby helped and supported you. Great that you guys are a team. Love that!!!!!
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing.your story. It will helps others!
ReplyDeleteBillie Jo - what I love about visiting you across the many miles, is inspiration for my own home and family - plus, of course, some adorable pup photos! But what I also love, is that you share important information as you did in this post. I know it will help anyone reading who is concerned or has questions. Who may be unsure and not know where to turn. Thank you again, so happy to have discovered your sweet corner of the world.
ReplyDeleteI think we all have intrusive thoughts, but when they take over, it is time for help. I am so proud of you sharing this, it makes me more normal.
ReplyDeleteThank you for this personal post, Billie Jo. I'm sure you have helped someone who hasn't looked for help yet. I am glad you got the help you needed and have conquered OCD. Those waves look so angry! Great photos! Wishing you a lovely week ahead!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Billie Jo, for sharing what OCD actually is and how to best manage it. I truly did not know. You are so brave and so helpful to speak up about it as you have. It appears to me that you are the winner in the battle.
ReplyDeleteAs for the foodie pictures, they look wonderful (as always!).
Gorgeous Waves Billie Jo. I am glad you posted about this ...OCD. My husband says I have it, but I think it is due to some meds I am currently taking for Restless Leg Syndrome. I've read up on this medicine and one of the side effects is OCD symptoms. This is a disease that all of us need to know about. thank you for posting.
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing a personal part of your story. That is one of the best ways we can help others...being willing to share our own experience and story. And, no, OCD does not define you:) Thanks again.
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